Awake and Dreaming

I see the morning light,
She's standing by,
To wash away my fright,
See the bright blue sky.
Watch my life away,
Give away my cares,
No one seems to worry,
They don't want to stay.
i'll start my life tonight,
Maybe I'll get far,
I won't stay awake,
This time I'll be right.

No one seems to worry,
No one seems to care,
They don't want to listen,
They just stop and stare.

I've been here too long,
Get up and kick the dust,
I cannot go home,
We didn't get along.
This just isn't fair,
Life is what you make it,
Make it what you will,
Breathe the open air.
Maybe I'll write a song,
Maybe you'll sing along,
What if we start a fight,
Tell me if I'm wrong.

No one seems to worry,
No one seems to care,
They don't want to listen,
THey just stop and stare.

I see the morning light,
She's standing by,
I knew that I was right,
This is our song tonight.

Subconcious Apocalypse

You close your eyes, and you're in a car,
It's moving quite slow-
You're not going far.

It's not clear,

Your destination,

Or even where you are.

A chill in the air,

A blink of the eye,

A friend he appears,

"It's time to prepare."

Through snowy blizards,

And wintery days,

A thought to the past,

Time unwinds it's mysterious veils.

You run trhough your trails,

Your roads,

Your trials.

You stop. You shiver. You Boil.

You die!

You jump for the light,

You crumble and cry,

You're moving away,

Getting dragged from behind.

A scary dark figure,

He's quiet,

And ever so familiar,

He's aproxiamtely your size,

No smaller,

No bigger.

He turns 'round,

Facing towards you,

"You're here free of charge,

But what did you do?

"You gave up your friends,

For money,

For fame,

And everything else untrue."

You bleed, you melt,

No one cares for your cries,

Thre friend is you,

The demon with lies.

The apocalypse lives,

'Till you open your eyes!

Boredum sets into the boring mind...

I'm bored. So I decided I'd write about boredum. Boredum occurs when you give yourself nothing to do, and leave no real options open. YOu can sit there and do one thing for hours on end, and not do anything about it! I'm here to say, that I'm going to break free of boredum. I will make something to do every day, to not have to worry about not having anything to do. I'm going to cut down on my social networking, and spend time looking for work, and actually doing something for me, and not just for others. I'm going to slow down on my Marijuana** intake, and spend more time pushing towards something palatable; something attainable. Get work, save up money, and get my fame in order, basically. I personally don't do enough. I tell myself I'm getting up to go job hunting, or do something generally productive, and end up sitting on the computer talking to my besties and doing nothing but listen to music and talk. No more. I will get my life back in order, and spend the hours of 10am-4pm on weekdays looking for work. It's going to be a task, but I am a man, and I can put to whatever I feel best. 4-6 will be used for practicing guitar/composing songs, and the rest of my time will be used for social networking.

**

I smoke TOO much marijuana. I smoke it basically every day. I need to cut back on that for a while. Take the occasional toke here and there, and concentrate on getting my life back in order.

What has this world come to?

I got pissed off on the bus today. I went to go catch the 94 Capilano to get to the Armoury, but don't have bus fare like usual. I usually walk, but some drunken native guy went and asked the bus driver if I could go on, and so I decided: whatever, why not. So I went on and asked, very nicely I asked, if I could ride for free to the Armoury. So he decides to lose his temper on me: "Everyone asks to go to this armoury place for free, why don't you go get some tickets from them?" He said in a slightly raised voice.

"Because they aren't open yet, and they don't give you bus tickets unless you're catching the bus to shelter, or you're going to a job/job interview." I responded.

"Well then why is everyone who's going there telling me otherwise?"  Was his rebuttal.

I glared at him for a few short moments, while angry responses flooded my mind, thinking of something not so hateful to snap back, as sometimes, I'm not the best at controlling those. The first 'nice-ish' thing that could come to my mouth, I took impulse at it's greatest, and sneered "Because they're bloody liars."

He glared at me, also for a couple short moments, probably doing the same, composing his savage angry mind to something 'nice-ish' to reply with. "Well why don't you have fare to get onto the bus?"

"Sir, because I'm homeless. I stay at the hope mission because I don't have employment. I go to the armoury to look for work, I go there to use their resources. I am asking you nicely, and it's freaking freezing out there!" I replied, informatively.

"Fine get on. But bring fare next time!" He then nodded he head towards the back of the bus, and lets the rest of the people on, giving them a warm plastic greeting: "Good morning."

As I walked towards the seat at the close front of the bus, everyone looked at me with a distant glare. They looked at me like I was less than them. That I am, and always will be different from them. That I am nothing. That bus driver is a biggot and is selfish and lacks in social skills. The rest of the bus ride I put in my headphones, stared at the ground, and tapped my foot to my tunes.

Biggots. The world can do without them. People are so ignorant towards things that they don't know. Things that they don't understand, they don't understand, and don't care for. I am just another member of society, trying to get back into life. I have no job, I have no house, I am looking for work, I'm trying to get my life together. I'm a regular member of society, I have my skills, and I use them, and I also lack in certain areas of abillities, and I make with what I can. People are scum. People who are understanding and agree with you, even in your harder moments in life, are hard to come by. If you meet someone like this, take them in as a friend. As it WILL have many benefits.